Lent has officially begun

Today begins our Lenton Season. Ash Wednesday marks the first day, or the start of the season of Lent, which begins 40 days prior to Easter (Sundays are not included in the count).
Lent is a time when many Christians prepare for Easter by observing a period of fasting, repentance, moderation and spiritual discipline. During some Ash Wednesday services, the minister will lightly rub the sign of the cross with ashes onto the foreheads of worshipers.

This year I've decided to give up drinking soda. Yes, this is very difficult for me. Lately I've gotten on a Mountain Dew kick and I can't stop. Hopefully quiting cold turkey won't be as difficult as I'm thinking.

Bed Rest Scare

Today was just supposed to be another routine visit. At this point I'm seeing the doctor every two weeks till week 34. We are currently at wk 32 and I thought so far so good. Doctor had other thoughts on his mind.

We had our regular visit; hi - how are ya - how's everything going - let's listen to her heartbeat. As soon as I mentioned that my contractions seem to happen sporadically but sometime so hard their quite painful and asked if the baby can bruise you from the inside out he quickly listened to her heartbeat and ordered a sonogram. They always seem to rush you in and out of every appt since there are so many others after you I really didn't have time to ask if everything was ok or if I should be concerned.

So after waiting over an hour for the sono they called me back. Denise did my sono today and it wasn't like normal. Ya know, lets get some pix of the baby and check out her size. First, it was questions in regard to how I've been feeling and if I knew why doctor ordered the sono today. Well of course my red flag when up and my heartbeat became more rapid. I was nervous and alone. Matt was working and couldn't break free last minute and my mom had to run her kindergarten route. I was alone and very uncertain on the news I was about to get.

They did all the measurements on Blueberry and the placenta. They did the measurements of blood flow and amniotic fluid. They checked her heart rate, which was 139 bpm. Denise said this was fine and she was probably sleeping which is why it was a little lower today. Everything seemed to be normal, then I relaxed a bit but I still had my guard up. So after fighting w/ Blueberry to give us a good facial shot, which we had no luck at, she gave me the news that they had to check me vaginally to see if my cervix was shortening up any, which is a result in having strong, consistent contractions like I have been lately. I asked her what it meant if it had, Denise informed me that doc would typically put me on bed rest for a few weeks. Panic struck at that moment!!! I wouldn't be a very good bed rest candidate at all!!

Denise was very prompt about the results of her measurements and everything was normal. What a relief! I am now to limit myself and what I do. I'm not on bed rest but I need to act like I'm pregnant and not like I'm running a marathon anymore. Be aware of my body. Pamper myself, and the most difficult part of all for me; Ask for help! UGH!!!

I immediately called my hubby and told him the good news that Blueberry was healthy and NO bed rest for me and he immediately laid the law down on my do's and don'ts. I love getting lectured at my age.

So anyway, that's my story of the Bed Rest Scare. Hopefully that will be the last time those words are ever spoken again throughout our pregnancy.

IT'S A GIRL!!!!!

I know its been 2 weeks since the big news hit our family with a bang but I'm finally getting around to announcing it to the world.

Our Little Baby Blueberry is a GIRL!!!

Now our family will be complete. We've got our healthy, happy, and vibrant little big man Caleb. Now we'll finally get the beautiful baby girl that Caleb can protect throughout the years, being the awesome Big Brother he is going to be. She couldn't be more lucky than to have Caleb as her Big Brother.

I feel like the luckiest woman in the world. As a young girl my dream was to marry my Prince Charming (Matt) and live in our new home where we could add to our happiness with 2 children. Of course I wanted our boy first to be the protector and then a little girl to dress up and show off. My own Prince and Princess. Every little girls dream, and now I feel that we're are just weeks away from completing my childhood wish.

I know all is going to be well now

This whole baby thing has been quite a whirl wind for Caleb. Frankly, it broke my heart to see how concerned he was about being a BIG brother. I thought he would love the idea straight out the gate. Well, I now know, this was 100% wishful thinking on my part. Caleb has had nothing but my full attention for the last 10 years and after I thought about it our news probably scared the daylight out of him. I felt horrible about myself after the fact. I should have never thought he would share my excitement right away.

After his initial reaction we were sure to devote 110% of our time to Caleb. Make sure he knew this baby would never take his place in my heart. He's my first born, that will always be so special to me. We updated him on everyone of our OB appointments and kept him informed of every new sono pic. I felt like I was doing everything possible to make him comfortable in our new adjustments.

Finally, this morning while getting ready for work Caleb came in our room and offered to make our bed for me. I graciously accepted his offer. After he made our bed he came over to where I was standing and patted my belly (which I might add is definitely starting to protrude) and said with a smile, "Is that my baby in there?" At that point my heart was melted. I felt he finally accepted and looks forward to the baby. HE'S READY TO BE THAT BIG BROTHER!!!!

I couldn't be a happier person right now. My son accepts the upcoming happiness to our family. I have a wonderful husband who won't let me lift a finger, he's truly my Superman. My family is constantly checking in on me to make sure things are going well. My friends are spoiling me with smiles and excitement on a daily basis. What more could a pregnant girl want.

Happy Mother's Day

Wishing all mother's a very Happy Mother's Day 2009. From one mother to another we know how much our children have blessed our lives.

I'm so grateful to have my sweet Caleb. He is the highlight to my life. He brings me smiles, he helped me find a love I didn't know 10 years ago that I was even capable of having. We, of course, have our every now and then mother-son trials but in the end he's tugging right at my heart strings. I guess what I'm trying to say is Caleb is my little sunshine. My constant ray of hope. No matter how bad a day I've had all I need is one word, smile, or glance from him and I'm relaxed again. I can't imagine a day in my life without him. I Love You Caleb!!

We also have a work in progress to be grateful, thankful, and anxious for. Otherwise known as: "Blueberry"

As you all know we are expecting another miracle for our family in November. We are so delighted to have another chance at parenthood. Even more excited to watch Caleb's excitement grow w/ us. As "Blueberry" gets bigger the wonder if its a boy or girl is fun to discuss of an evening. We can hardly wait to me "Blueberry". We don't care what the sex of the baby is just pray for a safe delivery and a healthy "Blueberry".

Being a mother is the most exciting thing in my life. Children are little miracles of God and I feel so blessed to have the opportunity of being a mother!

Happy Mother's Day!

Thank You

I want to say Thank You to everyone for all your sweet comments and especially those who have taken the time to send us cards.

We really appreciate all the kind words and support. We have been wanting this little edition for our family for quite some time now. It's wonderful to know we have great friends and family that will be with us every step of the way!

I plan on updating everyone often. So often you'll probably get tired of my proud momma moments. So I'll just say sorry now to everyone for being annoying.

Everything is going great!! Tomorrow we will hit our 13 week point w/ just 1 more week before gliding into our 2nd Trimester. Can you believe how fast time flies? I want this to last forever, we tried too long and too hard for it to be over so quickly.

I luckily haven't gained ANY weight yet. Caleb even looked at me this morning after I got dressed for work and said "Mom, you don't even look fat yet." I had to laugh so hard because all who know Caleb he is the sweetest however the most crucially honest little man you'll ever meet. If I were to ask him if I looked fat in something, he would tell me with no uncertainty in his voice, YES!! if that were the case. I so respect that of him. On the flip side he lets me know when I'm "One Hot Momma" too. He is just my little companion.

I am fearing that in the 2nd Trimester I will gain a ton of weight. Matt was a big baby 8-9lbs. Caleb was only 7lbs 12oz and he was very hard to push out. I was only 6-7lbs. I'm petrified that this baby will be at least 8 1/2 lbs and I'm going to struggle carrying and pushing out.

Now that you know our weights, what do you think our baby will weigh at delivery? I am interested to know what everyones thoughts are on this. I think it would give my family some good conversations and possibly some good laughs.

Let me know what your thinking :-) Don't scare me too much!

Technical Difficulties

I know I said I would share new info w/ you all this weekend but unfortunately I continue to have Technical Difficulties. Hopefully I can get everything put together so I can attach all my new info to the next blog I do. I'm so very eager to share my long awaited info.

Please be patient with me. I may have to contact my favorite S-I-L Christina to pick her brain a bit.

Till next time, I hope you have a wonderful week!!

Stay Tuned for my LONG awaited Blog.......

Today I'm excited to announce that there will be a HUGE announcement posted sometime this weekend. I'm not quite prepared for it just yet. I've been working on this project non-stop for 3 months now and let me tell you, I'll be glad to relax a little bit!

My blogging has been very lax lately, I know. I just haven't had the time to discuss all my happenings while working on this project. Hopefully now things will slow down a little and I can enjoy all my families upcoming events this year.

Toodles for now. I will be back again soon. Hope your having a beautiful weekend!!

Just checking in....

I haven't been posting or even visiting my favorite blogs too much lately.

Just wanted to check in w/ anyone who may stop by and be wondering where I've been.

For whatever reason, I'm just not in a blogging mood. I have so much going on w/ me lately but I don't feel it should be discussed so openly on my blog.

Everything is going good in my life, but I feel emotionally and physically drained. I can't explain it. I don't know why. What I do know is, I'm always tired and no matter how much sleep I can get, I'm still exhausted! It's unexplainable.

Hopefully soon I'll be able to get control of life again and get back to my happy bloggy self. Wish me luck.

God Bless You and your families in this Lenten Season.

Keep the Lord in your heart, you can always count on him.

Having Trouble

I would have never thought that dieting would be so hard for me. I was always pretty good at that. I'm very self-conscious of my looks and for whatever reason I'm struggling dearly. I cannot get big!!

I think I need to get some kind of appetite suppressant or something. I can't get control of my eating. I LOVE FOOD!!!! What is wrong w/ me? I've never been this bad. I have no energy to exercise and can't stop eating......UGH......I'm doomed.

I'm heading to the pharmacy after work and checking out some possibilities.

My Baby Turned 10 Today.

I think today was possibly the hardest day for me when it came to my son, Caleb. How did the time manage to slip away so quickly? I can't believe my little baby turned double digits today! He is supposed to stay little forever. Isn't there a contract for that? If not I need to figure out how to have a contract made :-)

He is just growing up so fast before my eyes. He is so independent now. He enjoys doing certain things other than just hanging out w/ me now, such as; Playing w/ his friends, hunting, going to any sporting event possible w/ whoever will take him, he's grown into a mighty hunter in training, and most of all he is starting to separate himself from us at all cost. Am I not "cool" anymore? How can you stand to hang out w/ your friends more than me :-)

He is a very sweet natured, loving, and thoughtful boy w/ an adventurous and mischievous side. He knows how to play mom and dad against each other, what child doesn't. But in his rougher times he knows who to come to if he really needs a warm word of advice - ME.....LOL! (Who else would it be)

So I guess I'm not necessarily loosing my little boy completely but watching his transformation from my little baby boy into a young man has my heart torn with emotion.

Caleb,
I hope to never loose momma's little boy. No matter what I hope you always know how much your father and I LOVE you. Your my little buddy, personal stylist, and confidant. I'm pretty sure I count on you as much as you count on me. I know in years to come that may all change, but for now I'm holding on w/ dear life to every moment we are lucky enough to share. I hope you've had a wonderful 10th Birthday filled w/ much love and memories.

Oh ya, don't ever forget: It doesn't matter how old you are, you'll always be my little baby boy.


Love Always,
Mom


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I would also like to take this time to send a Happy Birthday cheer to my kid sister for she and my little man share the same Birthday. How sweet is that, right!?!

Happy Birthday Jen!!!!! Hope you had a great day!